| A pretty little ditty |
[Jan. 5th, 2009|06:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | in bed | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | duh. | ] |
Song: It's okay
Band: Land Of Talk
Album: Some are lakes
It's Okay,
I don't even cry
all I think about is a memory
and the dream when you kissed my arm
as I look away, don't here what I say
That maybe when I die
I get to be a car
driving in the night
lighting up the dark.
something in your voice
sparks a little hope
I'll wait up for that noise
your voice become my home
One way road, don't care what I find
A little thunders good, I thought maybe you would
but it's okay, we all feel left out
sometimes growing up, it can get you down.
I give you some thing that no one's going to give you
my sleepin' skin and my heart deep down in you
I'll never tell you, but you're my little scar
Goodbyes are hard and there hard and there hard
Maybe when I die
I get to be a car
driving in the night
Lighting up the dark
Something in your voice,
sparks a little hope
Ill wait up for that noise
your voice become my home
I really really like this and this band. If you have the means you should buy or steal this album. Its wonderful. It will change your life. I sailed for about 40 hours over 3 days and I probably listened to this album about 50 times. I love this band, well for a little more than the fact that their music is wondeful....
Elizabeth Powell. We had a "moment" when they were in St.Pete. We hugged. It was beautiful.
But seriously, if you listen to this music you will not be wearing pants anymore because they will have been knocked right off.
Enjoy. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 25th, 2008|11:31 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | so cal | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nada | ] |
All I want to say is thank you to everyone. Do not take this in the wrong way. This is in no way a suicide note or anything like that. All this is is a message to the world.
I AM DONE WITH YOU! Wholey and fully. I have nothing else to give. I have given my heart, soul and body to other people for the last 3 years + of my life. I am done. I am done with everyone and everything. If everyone would just leave me alone and not mess with my emotions for the next 2 years, I will be..... Well I will be content. I'm tired of everything and everyone. No false hopes, no false possibilities. All that does is bring someone like myself even more down than we are ready are.
This isn't just a diatrirbe of a depressed 23 year old, (as I am sure many of you think i.e. all 2 or 3 of you who actually read this). All this is is an admission of defeat. I have given up. I have given up with the world, people, and everything else that makes my life more of a pain in the ass than it already is.
Everyday I hear about how much everyone cares about me. I do not disagree that they do not care NOW. I guess it is a situation where when you are down and out that people for some reason come out of the wood work and tell you how much they mean to them. How much can you mean to someone when that person has so many other things going on that it is obvious that whatever happens to you is in consequential to the minimun.
So with that being said in 2 years, if you do not hear from me, just assume that I am doing something that I enjoy and am finally happy, |
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| Sorry I just copied and pasted from MySpace |
[Dec. 5th, 2008|08:27 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | oceana | ] |
I'm sick and fucking tired of being everyones "third wheel", even when its the 4th or 5th wheel. Always the tag-a-long. Its so frustrating being so intraverted and socially inept. I think I may be getting depressed. I sleep all day, I have no energy or desire to do ANYTHING, I try to make plans for myself and just end up cancelling them. I don't know if going home is going to make anything better. I forsee it only making things worse..... hopefully I can still fit in with old friends because I really don't fit in with new ones here. |
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| Changin' it up |
[Dec. 27th, 2007|09:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  dorky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fraggle rock theme. | ] |
Now its's all about Fraggle rock episodes..... That show was awesome and in this man's opinion still is. |
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| AWESOME!! |
[Dec. 27th, 2007|07:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lilly Allen, Kate Nash, some yeah yeah yeahs... various youtube videos | ] |
Another night of drinking cheap imported beer and watching youtube music videos......... |
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| school |
[Oct. 19th, 2007|11:33 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | E-City | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nada | ] |
Hey. I'm still in school. We have lost 4 people so far. One for alcohol incident, one for failing out, one for injury (burnt his hand trying to jump over a fire....exactly), and one because of family issues but we all think it was a cop out because he was last in class.
We did the "dunker" yesterday. That was an experience. I'm going to try and get some pictures of it and maybe a vide our two. Basically you are dressed out in a flight suit, boots, helmet and gloves. The dunker is supposed to simulate and aircraft landing in water and subsequently rolling over. So inside of it there are 6 seats. All with 5 point harnesses. You get in, strap in and the start to lift you up into the air. then when everyone is ready the yell crash position w(at that time you get in the "crash position"), then right as you hit the water the yell reference point and you have to grab something to try and help your dissorientation.
At this point its filling with water but you can't unbuckle yet. It fills up completely with water and begins to roll over (mind you you're still strapped into the seat). Once it has completely rolled over you can then unbuckle and escape. The trick is there are only certain places you can exit from. The first time you can egress from anywhere except the very back, the second time all six people have to leave through the cabin door. The very last one is the same as the previous except you are blindfolded. Yea BLINDFOLDED.
So until I get pics I understand that this may not make sense, but trust me, it was pretty exciting. |
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| still here.... |
[Sep. 10th, 2007|06:59 pm] |
Well I am still in N. Carolina and it still sucks. Even their hurricanes suck. Barely any rain and a little wind. PFFF!!! Lame sauce. Been stuck in the barracks most of this whole time due to lack of vehicle. I did go out last saturday, but it was lame. I'm not usually one to say this but there is literally nothing to do here but get drunk here or go an hour away and get drunk. My trip to the outer banks was a joke. I'm gonna try and go to virginia beach either this weekend or next.
These fucking barracks are a disaster, and I am afraid to eat any meal other Breakfast at the galley. Therefore I am pretty much forced to eat top ramen or a frozen dinner of minimal choices if I decide to eat at all. Made one "friend" who is from up state New York somewhere. He is prolly the only other atheist/ non-redneck person in my class (i.e. I don't really fit in with anyone here). The weekend before my birthday the barracks power will be shut completely off, so I basically am getting kicked out for the weekend.
As far as school though. I love it. We have done a couple labs like build up of composites, composite repair, corrosion prevention (actually will be tomorrow. We get to paint some stuff). I was doing ok in my class until today I had a 95% average then I got an 88% percent on today's test which droopped me down to a 93%. Really pissed me off because it was just carelessness on my part. But hopefully I will be able to come back with some good scores. Learning about aerodynamics and how helicopters fly is so intersting to me because its all forces acting against each other. Very interesting stuff.
Well thats my update. Enjoy. There will probably be a lot more as my boredom turns to insanity and I don't know what to do with myself. |
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| At School |
[Sep. 2nd, 2007|12:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | killing my iPod | ] |
Elizabeth City sucks. Heading to the outer banks in a little. This will be a very long 5 months.
I definitely don't belong in the south. |
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| These are a few of my fav-o-rite things. |
[Aug. 12th, 2007|01:20 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Read Above. | ] |
A few things that are my favorites right now.... at this moment. They may change some day....
Songs: (Gonna be in alphabetical order. Straight from iTunes)
Atmosphere: Always coming back home to you. (I know weird).
Atreyu: Ex's and Oh's, Our Sick Story Thus Far
Bullet For My Valentine: Almost all songs.
Cold War Kids: We Used To Vacation, Tell Me in the Morning
Creedence Clearwater Revival: Down on the Corner.
The Cure: Love Song
David Bowie: Need I say more??
Deathcab For Cutie: I Will Follow You into the Dark.
The Decembrists: Shiny, The Legionnaire's Lament, O' Valencia, The Infanta, okay I like all of them....
Foghat: Slow ride
The Honorary Title: Everything I Once Had.
The Human Abstract: Album: Nocturne
Nightmare of You: Album: Nightmare of You
The Postal Service: Come on MAKE ANOTHER ALBUM PLEASE!!!!
Protest the Hero: Heretics and Killers.
Rise Against: Ready to Fall, Prayer of the Refugee
Rush: Fly By Night, Bastille Day
So They Say: Album: Antidote For Irony
Thrice: ANYTHING EVER CREATED!!!
T.V. On The Radio: Wolf Like Me
The Vision Of a Dying World: Cadillac Bears
Yeah Yeah Yeahs: Cheated Hearts
Movies
Don't even know. There's a lot I haven't seen yet.
One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest, Shaun of the Dead, Wet Hot American Summer, The Baxter, Waiting , Walk the Line, Sideways, Sin City, Wicker Park, SLC Punk, and some others.
Drinks HAHA Yes finally:
SEVEN AND SEVEN, vodka tonic w/cranberry, anything with RUM in it, the rest is beer: Rolling Rock, Newcastle, Guinness (sometimes), sierra nevada, PBR when I am poor.
EH thats really everything thats going on right now... Drinkin', watchin', listenin'.
Enjoy, if I think of anything later I'll add.
*EDIT*
Smokes: Camel Lights mostly, sometimes turkish royals. |
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| Burritos and gay clubs?!!?!!?! |
[Jul. 22nd, 2007|10:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Vision Of A Dying World | ] |
How is it that I go out to get a burrito and next thing I know I'm dancing with 300 half naked men? Thanks josh. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 30th, 2007|06:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lazy | ] |
"I am a crewmember on spaceship earth." |
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| No more Sea Otter |
[Apr. 28th, 2007|05:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
Well, I am officially off the USCGC Sea Otter and off to USCG Air Station San Diego for three months then off to North Carolina for school. I did get a some recognition though of being at that unit that I am actually really proud of because it was all performance based. Not to mention my Officer in Charge has some really motivating things to say about me during my departure speech. Overall I have to say it was a great learning experince and I did make a couple friends and proffesional relationships that I am going to try and keep the rest of my career.
The first neat thing was...... A plaque....everyone gets one when they leave but its still kinda neat.
THEN I got a Coast Guard Commandant letter of commendation which basically lists a bunch of the stuff that I did to warrant the letter....
Then the most exciting is the Letter also comes with a new ribbon called the "CG Commandant Letter of Commendation Ribbon". Long name but I am really proud of it.... Its the one on the left, then middle one is my National Defense Service Medal and the last one is the Sea Service Deployment Ribbon...
Well thats what I have been doing this past year. Monday starts a new chapter, hopefully this next one will be as good as the last. |
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| i want to go home. |
[Apr. 7th, 2007|07:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
this is why i'm hot. this why i'm hot. this is why, this is why i am hot, i'm hot cause i'm fly, you ain't cause you not. this is why, this is why, this is why i'm hot....wha??? uh ahhhhhh BYE!! |
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| Prolly should be doing something more productive... |
[Jan. 23rd, 2007|06:38 pm] |
But instead I shall browse through old pictures that are on my computer at work....
Fun with helo ops.
Car at work not at play.
Driving the little boat.
Singing to someone i think we were doing a .50 cal shoot...
well enjoy. Be advised I am very bored. |
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| ............... |
[Sep. 22nd, 2006|11:15 am] |
I wish I had something emo to say.... |
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| Donde estan BITCHES |
[Aug. 11th, 2006|08:23 pm] |
Um i really have nothing to say other than this is your hard payed tax dollars at work.... he he he he he he... hey its my tax dollars too... |
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| Thats right. |
[Apr. 21st, 2006|02:52 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | sd | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | negative. i have a headache. | ] |
I am a full figured, nubian princess. |
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